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God’s Hands

Tell me, how do you see the unseeable?

The intangible thread which holds faith anchored securely to your inner most being? 

Do you feel and see the hand of God? Now you simply must understand this is not a conversion conversation nor is it a writing about religion! No, what I am sharing is a life moment of a relationship I have personally!

 I must also now tell you a couple of facts, I do not hoot and holler. “Peace Be Still” is a literal layered statement, goal of attainment to peace, and literally figuratively. Three words to meditate upon the trinity🙏🏼💜🙏🏼 The Grotto in your real life or in your meditative life can also be the fulfillment of the trinity. If you are using scripture with guides or even prayer! There is a great and magnificent exploration with the Psalms… But for me they were that and more as a young girl, needing help with her father just having passed away, terribly unexpectedly!

In moments of turmoil, upheaval, or an insurmountable task. I went to the Psalms, Peace Be Still, I have had many such moments let’s look at today! I was discharged on July 24 after being in the the hospital for approximately 20 days. The healing has been very slow and pain would not leave on my right side and across my lower abdomen. I began a painful pursuit of telling my Doctors I was still hurting, it was the kind of pain which takes your breath and doesn’t allow anything of substance in your stomach without a great deal of pain😁. Something was wrong! 

Well, I think I am at a moment of transition with one Dr, I had been checked but told to go to the ER if this pain did not ease. I am two hours from the doctors and hospital I need, plus.. as a sojourner of motility issues, — the ER is the last resort! You do not go to the ER without having something nailed down as wrong. 

Here is the point of the story, where I start referring to divinity or God Winks. I was unfamiliar with this new care team I was being refereed to… Palliative Care did not provoke good thoughts nor do I have the energy to be going one more place. I am happy with my GI and Neurologist. I need a sleep doctor ( in process). So right before the appointment, to go see this new Dr,  I almost cancelled! See, the way I see life God is always moving with purpose. If we jump up and get in His way? Well that’s all us! 

God had put things in place & the Devil ( or really my own weakness)  letting chaos roll on up into my world and flat out steal my Peace Boat …Then it went further! I wake-up at 1:26 am so nauseated I can barely move! But God was whispering “you can do this “knowledge unattained is not gained! ”

The care team was amazing, nurse, chaplain, social worker. I was pretty sure I was not going to find anything here until the Doctor came in! I don’t have to keep hurting😳 ! She is going to help~~plus she was showing knowledge in her questions and answers! She set up the CT scan which saw the blockage! 

Thank you, Jesus! I have no idea why it is referred to as “palliative care” it should be called “We see you, hear you, understand and will use common sense as well as the oath I swore as a physician to treat you! 

Now I have left a few minor details out, no need spending time in the mud, when I am done! I think God was very loud! Don’t you? 

I have been sojourning this a very long time! I have never been told “welcome to the family,” offered a ride to the imaging center down the road, and had a doctor know the exact prices of the the items she is suggesting! Then gives me a handful of the ginger candies (chimes is the name) to help with nausea. I have and have heard of ginger for the nausea. She wanted to know if I had found these?!

I will tell you, I am not sure how long I would have waited, if I had not seen her. But what I do know is God put everything back in the Peace Boat and made sure I had my oars! 

I hope and pray if you are living with a chronic illness, you have a source of inspiration! A higher power which can fulfill you sometimes better than any medicine. I hope and pray you do not have #gastroparesis #ChronicIntestinalPseudoObstructionSyndrome #ColonInertia #migraines 

I pray you find a great support group, friends,family (blood or not) and meditation (with whatever higher power fulfills you, and let’s you know there is a source of grace and mercy waiting)! 
#curegp Gastroparesis Fighting for Change

International Foundation for Functional Gastrointestinal Disorders – IFFGD

The Digestive Health Alliance
Petition to Congress to establish Gastroparesis a disability 

H.R.2311 – Functional Gastrointestinal and Motility Disorders Research Enhancement Act of 2015
Petition to congressional to Declare August Gastroparesis Awareness Month